AAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
This was a really hard day of the challenge for me to do 'cause as irrational as some of these fears are they are still real fears. Looking up some of the pictures has made me seriously ill. Literally feel like throwing up right now.
But here they are, my totally ridiculous and completely unfounded and irrational fears!
Earthquakes. This article is pretty scary. We go to California alot and this is something I have always been afraid of.
Earthquakes. This article is pretty scary. We go to California alot and this is something I have always been afraid of.
Every time I go to Cali I have little panic atacks when I go over all their big bridge overpasses, thinking that an earthquake is going to hit and the bridge is going to collapse. I am quiet about it but in my mind I am freaking out! One of the times that we went to San Fran was right after the earthquake/Tsunami in the Indian Ocean and I am not exaggerating when I say that I looked out our hotel window constantly to make sure the ocean had not receded in the beginnings of a tsunami.
I told you...completely irrational.
Mark is always trying to get me to watch stupid movies with Zombies and I can't tell you how much those kind of movies scare me. Just ill.
I can watch intense and somewhat scary shows but anything like that makes me physically sick with fear. Also any movie where a child is involved, zombie or not. Just any scary movies that have to do with kids.
I know I'm not alone in this one. I will never forget this day. We had gotten our satellite the day before and all I did that day was sit and hold my baby Jackson, cry and watch the tv for hours and hours. My heart broke. For years after I had a very hard time getting on a plane and not looking around and wondering if there were terrorists on board. It could be anyone, I would think. I have gotten better but I do still have this fear.
Of course these are all my "fears" but there are always the parenting fears...what if my kid has no friends, what if they aren't "popular", what if they are too "popular" and jerks to other kids, what kind of life will they have, what if they hate me, what if I wreck them?
I have alot of fears but I guess what I've learned about fear is that I could let it rule me and never fly on a plane or visit the ocean and have moments of being scared or hide away in my home where I feel safe and never experience real life. Or I could enjoy my life! I choose life...and Hawaii and California and one day Europe and fun!!! I guess when it's my time it's my time.
As for zombies, well I just don't need to watch the stupid movie!
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